For the past two months, my ego has been ringing in my ear to “figure it all out now.” This is total BS because, let’s get real, we never have it all figured out. Life is about being present…because the present is all we ever have. Life is about allowing yourself to be guided to the future while being grateful for what you’ve got right now.
I’m in transition right now. Having graduated just shy of six months ago, I’m doing something totally different than I’d imagined. I went to school for nutrition and I always thought that I would spend 5-6 years in school and become a registered dietitian. When I hit my second year of college, my intuition threw down a red flag and said, “This is not your path, girlfriend. Finish school and then you’ll know where to go.” To be honest, studying nutrition was not what I’d imagined it to be. It was more medical-based and, while I did receive a good education, I didn’t feel passionate about the work. I was scared shitless. What was I going to do? I didn’t know. I had to wait. I had to trust. So, I did. And I’m so glad that I did. So, so glad.
I’m working my arss off to soak up and learn everything I need for my future plans. I know that I have a message to carry and I know that I’m good at giving that message and, while I don’t know how that is going to fully translate into my career, I know that I’m being guided. This is really hard for me to admit, because my ego will tell me that I’m not good enough for not completely knowing the direction of my career. But do we ever completely know the direction?
All of this over-thinking is a really selfish state-of-mind because it’s based on getting instead of giving. It’s focused on “when I get there” and “when I have this.” And this is where the ego thrives. It lives for trying to convince us that we’ll only be truly satisfied when we get something else. The truth is that I am exactly where I need to be.
I’m already teaching the message every day through this blog, through my work as a nutrition coach and barre instructor, through upcoming projects (!!!), and through daily encounters with everyone I meet. I’m already doing “the work.” This always centers me, because it reminds me that it’s not about the form – it’s about the content. The form of “having my career figured out” isn’t important right now. The content of sharing love by infusing it into everything that lights me up is the important thing. That’s where the juice is – that’s where the mutual exchange of love occurs…and that’s where the miracles happen. And miracles happen because of this mutual exchange.
Bottom line: It’s not all about you. It’s all about US uniting together in love.
As we continue to work on ourselves, it can be really easy for us to dip into a “me” mentality. We gotta remind ourselves that the reason we’re doing this work is to remove the blocks to love’s presence within us. Once we remove the blocks (i.e. work on ourselves), we can spread love to others. Spreading this love to others is manifested through miracles. We become miracle workers, helping others to shift their perceptions, and we welcome the presence of miracles into our lives.
If you’re feeling stuck, ask your internal teacher for help. Take a deep breath and say, “Internal teacher, I’m feeling stuck. I am open to receive guidance.” That’s when books show up and people show up – all to help you learn. Because when the student is ready, the teacher appears.
It’s important to remember that we are always students and teachers. This allows our perception to shift from getting to giving, realizing that you and I play equal parts in everything. We may never have it all figured out but we can extend our light and help others figure stuff out. And that’s the point of life, isn’t it?