Anyone else feeling super irritable this week? I am a very patient person but, this week, I found myself losing every last bit of patience that was left inside of me. I know the fact that I’ve only gotten 6 hours of sleep most nights this week has something to do with it. Lack of sleep = irritable Heather.
This week has also been filled with lovely surprises.
On Wednesday, I was working from home all day. I’d been working for a fairly long time and knew it was time for a break. Sometimes, I have problems taking breaks. My ego will pop in and tell me really crazy stuff, like “Nothing is going to get done if you don’t take a break” or “You’re lazy” or “You’re worthless.” It’s scientifically proven that taking a 10 – 30 minute break after 90 minutes of focused work is the most productive way to work. It keeps you focused, clear, and driven. You also get a lot more done. I know this. Yet, my ego still feeds me this stuff.
So, on Wednesday, as I sat debating over whether to continue working when I really didn’t feel like it, I heard a voice say, “Grab your keys and go to Wildflour.” Miracles always happen at Wildflour, so when I hear such a call, there really is no arguing with it. I grabbed my purse and drove to my favorite vegan bakery and cafe.
On the drive there, I realized it was a good thing that I left my work…because I was starting to make it all about me. I had lost sight of the intention behind the goal for the project. And when we lose sight of the intention behind our goal, it’s always a sure sign that we need to step away and ask for guidance. So, that inner voice was right. Its plan is always far greater than mine.
As I was driving, I asked the Universe to guide me to be of service to someone.
When I arrived to Wildflour, I ordered a hemp bar and a cup of chai tea before sliding into the wall-length booth to read my book. A few minutes later, this man with gorgeous black skin, the whitest and widest smile, and glowing personality walked in. He ordered a coffee and sat a few seats down from me. After taking a look at the book I was reading (Ask and it is Given by Esther & Jerry Hicks), he gushed about it. Before we knew it, a half-hour had passed. We talked about everything from entrepreneurship to spirituality to love to jogging. His name is Ammanuel and he is awesome. He is an author and artist. I gave him some blogging tips and kicked his butt in gear towards social media. The world needs this man’s presence. I couldn’t believe that someone as talented as him wasn’t showing the world his goods!
We’re both only children and talked about how we always wanted to have a physical sibling on earth. We both agreed that we’d found a brother and a sister in each other. Instant connection. My sister, who died three years before I was born, is definitely guiding me every day. I feel her presence all the time and now know that is just as beautiful has having her here on Earth with me.
I forget how but we eventually got onto the topic of A Course in Miracles. I mentioned how I’m studying it and, while I love the material so deeply, I have really been wanting someone to study it with me.. “I’ve always wanted to read it. Why don’t we do it?” Ammanuel said. “OMG! That would be awesome!” I said. And so it is.
After we parted ways, I drove all the way home with a goofy grin on my face. When I got home, before getting back to work, I felt compelled to go on Facebook and look at Ammanuel’s “about” page.
His birthday is my sister’s birthday.
Moral of the story: Our life is a map and the Universe knows our destination. Our way is not always the right way. Sometimes, our way sucks…particularly when we choose to try to push and make things happen, which never works. But the Universe’s way always works. It always guides us to the right people at the right place at the right time. That’s why it’s called Divine timing.