‘Random Thoughts’ Category

  1. Just. Let. Go.

    April 21, 2013 by Heather

    Guess who completed her Reiki I training? Yep, me!

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    I learned so much yesterday. Not just about Reiki but also about myself. Wanda Morrison, Reiki master and the incredible mother of Angela (owner of Mind Body Barre) led our Reiki Level I attunement. It was just me and my friend Kendalyn who were receiving our Reiki I, which made it a lot more intimate and special. 

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    Reiki gets a bad rep in the mainstream world. And while it can seem a little “woo woo,” it’s totally legit and transformative. I grew up learning that Reiki was “Devil’s work.” I grew up afraid of energy and spirituality because I was taught it would be a sin to engage in something that was not “God’s work.” Now, I know this all stems from people holding onto an irrational fear and having a strong desire to control people according to what they believe is right…instead of letting go and letting people form their own path to connect with Divine energy. 

    Reiki (prounounced ray-key) is a Japanese word that means “soul energy.” It is a Japanese healing methodology that was rediscovered in the 19th century by a scholar named Mikao Usui. The history of Reiki is so interesting! You can read more about there here if you want.

    The attunement process was amazing. During a Reiki attunement, the Reiki master (Wanda) passes on Reiki energy to the Reiki practitioner (me). It basically rasies your energetic vibration. In other words, you are being given Universal life energy (from the Divine / God / Goddess / Life / Source / Spirit) that will raise your energetic frequency. So, you can hold more space for positive energy and cultivate a deeper intution and connection between your mind and body. It helps to bring negative emotions to the surface so they can heal, if you choose to heal them, so that you can be a true being of light on this planet.

    Still with me? ;-) Don’t run away. Ha!

    The attunement was rad. And super emotional. I felt emotionally hungover when I left but it was for good reason – stuff was coming to the surface as an opportunity for me to heal it. 

    I learned something about myself: I still need to work on LETTING GO. For as far back as I can remember, my ego has been telling me that, if I’m not perfect, I’m doing it wrong. Whatever “it” is, if I’m not doing it 100% perfect, then I’m wrong, I’m a failure, and I should just quit. I know this is part of the reason why I developed an eating disorder. When things weren’t perfect (aka always), I would feel out of control and project that control onto food.

    Thankfully, I’ve done a really good job at coming to terms with the fact that I can’t control everything. I don’t want to control everything. It’s exhausting and too much work. I like to follow my heart and take action while trusting the process of being led to the next right action. When I stop and check in with myself and release my desire to control to the Universe, it’s easy. Life flows. Synchronicity and miracles occur. When I let my ego convince me that I need to control everything, life doesn’t flow. Synchronicity is absent. I feel exhausted and depressed. So, it’s obvious which of the two options is better for me. Right? Right.

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    After the attunement process, Wanda said, “You need to let go and stop trying to be perfect. Just stop it. It’s not serving you.” 

    I guess I thought that since I’ve been in sober recovery from my eating disorder for three years, that my perfectionist tendencies had lessened and were, therefore, less impactful. But that’s not true at all. Anyone who suffered from addiction has to be conscious of how they’re exhibiting addictive behaviors and that includes me. I’ve been out of tune with this.. I don’t have the desire to control things all the time. I’ve come a long way and really do love setting my heart on something while the going with the flow of how the Universe takes me there. It’s heart-centered action and it’s so beautiful. But I still have some work to do. I need to chill the eff out sometimes, and, like Wanda said, “Just let go.”

    A Course in Miracles says, “To teach is to learn.” I’m always a student and always will be a student and, yesterday, I was schooled on perfectionism. She totally called me on my shit. So, I’m ready to let go and have even more fun. 

    Bring it on!

    Stay lovely,
    Heather

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  2. Live ON purpose

    April 19, 2013 by Heather

    Last night, I sent out a tweet asking how you would define “purpose.” And they’re freakin’ beautiful.

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    I’ve been thinking a lot about “purpose” lately…what it means and why we feel like we need to “find our purpose.” What I’ve come to believe is that we already are our purpose. We become so caught up in becoming someone “great” and growing up to “do great things” that we often don’t stop and just tell ourselves, “I’m great.” I sure know that I don’t do this enough!

    We become so obsessed with “finding our purpose” that we forget about how life isn’t about finding our purpose – it’s about living ON purpose. It’s about living ON the platform of love. Ultimately, we all have the same purpose. We just express it in different ways. We’re all here to allow the Universe to use our bodies as expressions of love. That’s it. 

    Marianne Williamson gives a great analogy in A Return to Love. She says, “A Course in Miracles likens us to sunbeams thinking we’re separate from the sun, or waves thinking we’re separate from the ocean. Just as a sunbeam can’t separate itself from the sun, and a wave can’t separate itself from the ocean, we can’t separate ourselves from one another. We are all part of a vast sea of love, one indivisible divine mind.” 

    So, in essence, if we stop striving for goals “out there” and tune “in there,” we really will feel fulfilled. Why? Because we will stop resisting the guidance the Universe is trying to pass onto us. We will accept the guidance that is being passed onto us, we will accept our assignments, and show up ready to learn and grow. 

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    I know that my purpose on this earth is to be a conduit for miracles, courtesy of the Universe. I know that with all my heart. I know that I am a writer, musician, author, and speaker. Maybe it hasn’t manifested yet but every cell in my body knows that I am these things. Not because I want to be cool…but because I know that this is what I am put here to do. It is how I am meant to express love to and and through others.

    Right now, I’m still learning. I decided to dedicate 2013 to being a good student. I have an assignment to grow and learn through the current jobs that I’m in, to learn from A Course in Miracles, and to learn through the people that come into my life. And I’m having a blast doing it while also working on the things that truly light me up on the side. All the while, though, none of it really matters as long as I’m living ON purpose. That is, I’m giving love with everything I do and surrendering my plans to the Universe. Surrendering your plans to a power greater than yourself does not mean that you’re giving up your purpose. It’s actually the total opposite. You’re just handing it over to the Universe. When you really let go and allow the Universe to work through you, you form the best effing partnership of your life. Life flows better. Synchronicity shows up left and right. Miracles are natural. And that’s the way it’s supposed to be.

    What if you knew  that all the pain and suffering you went through was going to lead you to something great? What would you do if you knew everything was taken care of in the name of your purpose? You would accept the assignment and, despite the difficulties, you would endure them… because you would know what was waiting on the other side of that pain. You would live ON purpose.

    This is something I’m working really hard on right now. Every morning, before I get out of bed, I repeat the prayer from A Course in Miracles that says, “Where would you have me go? What would you have me do? What would you have me say? And to whom?” It centers me and allows me to offer my body up to the Universe as a vessel for love and miracles. When I catch myself trying to control situations, I tell the Universe, “I hold my vision and trust Your process.” Instantly, it snaps me back.

    How can you better live ON purpose?

    Stay lovely,
    Heather

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  3. He’s Just Like Me

    March 22, 2013 by Heather

    “Generosity insists that you meet people where they are. This requires some courage, like all forms of intimacy.” – Danielle LaPorte, on The Daily Love

    I never thought of it that way … but my sister Danielle is damn right.

    I drive by homeless men at least once a week, and it’s always the same one to three men. They stand outside the nearby Whole Foods plaza, situated near the traffic light so they can catch the attention of people driving by. They hold cardboard signs marked in all caps with black Sharpie. “PLEASE HELP.”

    I’m going to out myself here. Being someone who is crazy passionate about personal development and spirituality, I wasn’t doing so hot here. When I first started passing these three men, I would actually get pissed at them. “Here I am working my ass off every day and barely making ends meet…why can’t they simply go out and get a job too? Any job?” I would think to myself. I’d pass them by and would feel emotionally hung over afterwards. I felt like a total hypocrite.

    “I desire to think differently about this situation,” I said to my inner guide. I held the vision and trusted the process.

    The next time I saw the man with the scraggly beard and flimsy cardboard sign, something snapped in me as I pulled up to that traffic light. It was red. I called out to the man. “Sir,” I said. He heard my voice and walked over. “All I have is a few dimes but I hope they can be of service to you.” I handed him the change and felt his rough skin. I looked up. Our eyes met. “God bless you,” he said. I saw myself in eyes. At that moment, I got it. I DO know him. He’s just like me.

    Stay lovely,
    Heather

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